Still in wonder
-Robert John Manuel

That day  still on my mind,

You left an impression never last,

An angel long been waiting for,

Came down and gives shine,

To a life still in dark of the past.

I heard my heart beating,

 A roar of a tiger never been heard,

Only one name is shouting,

A beautiful voice of a chirping bird,

Still in wonder why this is happening?

But then you left,

Not knowing what I've done,

I try to be deaf,

But my precious one has gone,

 All fade with just a beat of a wand.

Its like a ball was roll,

In pain I spend the rest of it,

Not knowing the tears just fall,

Like a cane was beat,

Is this what I deserve after all?

So its the reality

Walking in the sidewalk with a grande pearlmilkshake on my hand.I felt something on my  back well its not usual.I just decided not to mind it.After a while its still feel ticklish.Then I decided to look back then what I saw is a small man.Its actually a kid and he's begging for my shake. Honestly that time I don't pity him.I feel annoyed because he kept on following me.Then I checked my pocket lucky to have some penny then I gave it to him.Guess what he's still not contented still he continues to beg me for the shake.I just said to him next time I'll give you one.After that I rode tricycle going home.While I'm on the ride I'm wondering why that child is so desperate to have my shake.Anyways its just a usual beverage.I got home then rested for while.Still I'm in a mode of curiosity.The next day we watched a documentary as part of our lesson in Filipino.The documentary is all about poverty in the country.While watching it what I felt is guiltiness. Why do this people have to suffer this kind of situation.Then suddenly the small boy pops up on my mind the one I encounter at the sidewalk. Maybe that boy is one of those who suffer because of poverty.That instanced I really feel guilty for not giving him my shake . A lot of things came to my mind after watching the documentary. Its like I've been awaken by someone . Like someone keeps saying to me that I'm very lucky. For I don't beg for foods,don't eat the leftovers and some times I even eat more than three times a day.Why not to give some to them. Then I just realized that even by my leftovers I may have made that child happy.Because if  I l gave him my shake. That child I met may have experienced the taste of luck that I have even with just that amount of beverage left on my hand .Then I just knew how unequal this world is.But just in our own way let's be equal to them by sharing what we have.Let them see the joy of living without the feeling of starving.For them a food does count than a penny.

MY GREATEST POSSESSION

I was asked  what was my greatest possession. Then I suddenly stare at the wall and ask myself. A lot of things came to my mind. After that long time of  thinking. I simply answered this pen was my greatest possession. It may not have the value as golds. But surely its the only thing that I possessed that only knows what I feel .Yeah this thing knows the true me.Its the only thing I used to write my everyday experiences.Not every possession you have knows who you are and what you are. But this pen on my hand is the only thing I can trusts.Because even it knows my secrets this thing can't say to the world all those I wrote using it.That's why I trust it the most. It runs out of ink but still keeps what we had together all the heartaches and joy.Sometimes we don't realize the importance of the things that we have.But the truth this things knows are whole being and what we are just sad that this things can talk nor express what they want to say. We the living can express what we want but still don't used it on good things. I just wish that this pen can talk so it can express its reactions to what I write.

A PEN DESERVES TO LIVE THAN A MAN WHO DOESN'T KNOW HIS LIMITATIONS...

Kaibigan kaya mo yan (friend you can do it)

"Don't lose hope my friend".After a long time of no chat finally I saw my friend online.He is suffering with an illness.He didn't specifically said what it is.I respect his decision to keep it private.But what I notice is he's not good.Just the words that I saw was I seldom smile I seldom laugh and just found myself staring at the window.I pity him much.Because what I see is not a friend that I knew.We both love crazy stuffs then but now he barely laugh or smile.Just what he said is I'll no longer stay on this earth.That reality for me is also hard to accept.One night after we talked before I sleep I prayed for him.I said my true friends are countable by fingers please don't let one perish from my life.Yes that's true they are only few   I consider true to me.After all I didn't expect it would be that worst an illness that I knew.That even me kidding when he said I have only few times to spend here.Please man forgive me for all the insults I've said.Thanks for being a good friend man .This not a goodbye just a post lol....I know you can do it. I know behind all those pain you felt there are lot of persons who loved you just think of us.Even though I know it will not relieve the pain I know it'll help.

PAGALING KA.

PAIN IS JUST THE ABSENCE OF JOY AND WHERE HERE FOR YOU REMEMBER THAT...

It just hurts

Pakisabi na lang na mahal ko siya di na bale kung may mahal siyang iba.

I've just heard a song with this lyrics and yeah its better to let the person you love know how you feel regardless if that person loves somebody.Its hard to let go but its the best thing to do.Accepting the fact that that person is not worth of your love.But its not easy to forget. Yeah forgetting is not an easy tasks to do.Because I myself  have experienced it.That time, I'd love to wake up in the morning and the best part is that I think of you before I sleep.Now everything is just like a nightmare, a bad dream that never ceases my mind.It is now hard to think of you . I am a fool I may say. Because I still don't regret that I met you .


The world will change but my feelings for you will not be buried in forgetfulness.....

Your precious than what you think

One time as boredom strikes I met this person.We exchanged stories about life,how happy it was.How to make it worth living.We even talk the whole day.I really appreciate those things.A person who shows me the positive side of life.I get to use to talk to that person everyday.That's the only time I knew how friendship was. No one knows the importance I felt because of that person doings.One of this is, to experienced greeted on the first minute of my birthday, just to send a warm greeting on a phone call.Not even my parents let me experience this.I can even regard it as of one of my best birthday in 16 years of my existence.All my problems are welcome to say.But I am afraid if this was all true or just an hallucination.Because most of the people I encounter as my friends all just ended up into a dissapointment.Its dissapointing because most of them are not true to me.In short some just use me.Experiencing this makes me alone most of the times cause I don't know when to trust a person.But this time I trust a person not even meeting in person.Maybe because I saw how I was treated and the attention given to me is exemplary.Now the time is passing not knowing if that person still consider me like it was before a companion, a friend,a confidant.But whatever it takes.Everything that person shows me will still remain not just in mind but in my heart.....

I've laughed a hundreds, but when you came to my life 
you're more than those precious things that made me happy...

FRIENDSHIP IS NOT ABOUT THE MATERIAL YOU CAN GIVE,ITS ABOUT THE COMPANIONSHIP THAT YOU SHARE THAT NO ONE CAN FIND IT ANYWHERE. -Robert John Manuel

PAGMAMAHAL (LOVE)

The first time I met you,its just like the usual thing, then its goes deeper everyday not knowing than I'm starting to love you.That is one of the treasured days of my life you fill my emptiness you make my bore days come into life.Every night before I sleep I'm not anymore afraid to face the challenges of tomorrow.Sometimes I've come to a point of confusion is it really love or just an infatuation? I'm afraid to enter  a battle of no assurance of winning it.Then I realized what I am afraid of ,is it having you or losing you?Yeah its my first time I'm afraid that I'll just lose you but having you is the only thing that makes my every day.One time as I walk going home I saw a lovers at a bench I envy them.I said to myself one time I'll be sitting on that bench holding the hand of the person I love.But I hope its not already late for me to say how much I love you........... 

LOVE IS UNIQUE NOT BECAUSE IT IS ESSENTIAL TO LIFE BUT BECAUSE ITS THE ONLY THING THAT NOT SEEN BY THE NAKED EYE WHICH MAKES THE MAN WORTH LIVING -Robert John Manuel