What I felt this night is tremendously different.I can't even laugh for a single second.I'm so downgraded,seems that all my dreams just vanished.I want to die even just for a moment and escape from the problems this world has given me.A can of beer at my side is a very unusual sight in my room.But yes its there, my only companion for the night.I have a lot of dreams in life. But whats the used of dreaming if you know theres no one left behind you to support all this vanity of yours.I need a person to talk with.But where are they? I don't know.Hope they don't fade like my dreams with a blink of an eye.I really feel lonely this night.Afraid but I tried to deal with this suicide thing.I pity myself so much which you'll not find in my character.Kept asking whats the used of all the gadgets on my bed .They are just pleasure of mine but can't never help in times like this.There are people who act concern but behind their words are their impoverish character.Oh God please help me...